Destroying Myself to be Free

(ahh nothing like a big batch of posts....)

Didn't realize
I couldn't speak my mind
didn't see
the chains over my throat
so used to the weight
pressing down on me

walls of protection
closing in
walls of security
I'm burning within

never realized
I was trapped inside
gotten so used to
living with this doll frame
only mouthing only responding
in ways deemed safe
no wonder this monkey on my back
is beginning to chafe

pressing
burning
chafing
trapped here
pressing
burning
chafing

surrounded by my fears
locked by my mind
designed to protect me
locked by my mind
destroying myself
to be free.


~K

The God on the Outside

the idol stands tall
perfect and poised
can such a tyranny
truly exist
screaming and stamping
beings chained down
most respond without a sound

accepting their fate
wallowing in pools of their creation
praying for another way to be
when the chains
they forgot how to see

pointing at those
who strive to break
it's their fault
that this happened in the first place

never look to themselves
forgetting the three fingers pointing back
the god on the outside
know how to put it all on track

these beings forget the observation
affecting all from within
they forget the feeling
of their own living skin
trying to crawl into another
to remember the sensation
all they find is disappointment

the tryanny
on the outside
those who stive to break
on the outside
god
on the outside

the world out there
all of it moving
along created by
what's within
these beings have forgotten
what's within

~K

Shades of Gray

(sorry for the long wait folks...)

In the lines of time
all fades
falling swiftly back
into another shade
of gray

pushing and struggling
to get through
another day
soundlessly praying

When did it all
lose it's glitter
when did it all
lose it's shine
forgotten now
what we find divine

Drive stifled
motivation
lacking within
only looking for
more ways to lose ourselves
from what may have been

accepting this fate
chained to our rope
sensations lost
of what was hope
who knew that
we would fall into this
who knew that
we would forget out bliss

mantra becoming
we'll try that later
later never comes
and forgetting is easy
all that stays
is shades of gray.

~ K