If It Hurts

Serpentine lines
flow on white flesh

sounds of chaos
stirred by the call

I never thought I'd miss you
but it seems we've left our
marks on each others minds

the beds still broken
duvet thrown away

I don't know what this means
I don't know if I want you
all I know is that I miss your smile
the person I trust, to allow
me to explore, all my desire

I listen to a favorite band
I think you know who
the song that had the worst memory
Now reminds me of you

I don't know what this means
if it means I want you
I need you
I crave you

All I know
is that I miss you
I know these words
will probably bring old hurts to bear
I can't help it though
I miss you
I need you to know
that I think of you
with kind thoughts and words
I miss you
I'm sorry if it hurts.


~K

Sun

here comes the sun
I'm crying as she comes
praying
she won't show me the scars again

I'd hoped they had healed
I'd dreamed they'd not remain

Her ray's filtering in
the valleys and holes
shown in shadow and high-light

I'd seen them gone
I'd felt them smooth

just a dream
just a dream

one I wish
I had never seen

~K

moving

Echo, of a door closing
in a room
expansive

contents packed away
all seems withdrawn

As I await
the day I have dreamed of

the day, I fear
the true transition
into my life
so dear

I know the universe
she's taking care of me
proven by the abundance
that continues to flow
towards me continually

beautiful to see
my dreams
fulfilled
in the most splendid of ways

the butterflies that float
in my stomach
are anticipating
a brand new way

a way to be
all essence of me
a way to enjoy
all the bounty
that the universe
can bring

the joys of traveling
my path
of help and service
to the world
my thanks falls
in the puddle
of tears

they are all that echo
within the room now

~K

The Shadow

I sit
sometimes in fear
of the person I could be
the abilities i have
so young
a large impact
I could create in time
easily

my intentions for good
my desires for love
my hope to improve the world

yet
fears of destruction

myself, or others

striving to release
as they hold me back
every step I take

feel as though
I flow on track

yet the fear
pulls and taunts
of the dark things I know
but long ago
I forgot that response

knowing my will
my intentions
my desires

why do i still
fear the fire

ego's hold
upon me
seems to be strong
taking a moment
I realize I was in the shadow
all along.


~K

My Phosphorescent Heart

(wow, it's been forever.. yep..
k i'll see if i can stay on the boat.
yea catching up posts! )

My phosphorescent heart
beats and blooms
in my core

under the light
of a nine month moon
the scars finally sealed

why do i know these things
tread this path so young

frolic along
pretend it's all good fun

my phosphorescent heart
wound within a tree
in the beats of the night
daylight it finally sees

a guide for all
i am to be

though no other it seems
is able to guide me

i look to my tree
it's has a flowers bloom

with it's beating trunk
this my be
my only signpost.


~K

Bread may be the Enemy

(mmmm delicious loaf, so evil and delicious, i had to let my sense of humor out somewhere!)

I think bread may be the enemy
loaf waltzing in
a dinner of crisps and blood
where to begin

lucky i kept it
locked and lost
so even it's wafting scent
wouldn't cause me to give in

poets chanting spells
of love and hate
these old druids and their ways
we long forgot, but always sought

lucky i kept it
locked and lost
so it's delicious texture
would tempt me not

then why keep company
with the baker
if his wares destroy you

why keep company
of the poets
if their rhymes implore you

i think bread is the enemy
i'll tend these waters with care
i think bread is the enemy
it's time to do what i wouldn't dare

lucky i kept it
locked and lost

the glories of
the passage of time
to reveal, what truly is
what truly shall be
as to last, and to be what
it boils down to,
an essence

i'll tend these waters with care.


~K

Tears from the Sky

(also done in may... man i am behind...)

When the sky cries
we call it rain
it has a sad story
to tell
of times past
and heaven and hell

above all
it watches
the observer, alone
wishing only
to partake
in the world below

so much help
it could bring
if only beyond
weather
it could effect
everything

millennia pass
the clouds lament
drops shaken
make their sorrowful
decent

when the sky cries
we call it rain
it has a sad story
to tell
of times past
and heaven and hell


~K

Parry, Joust

(this was actually done in may.. totally forgot to post..)

Parry & joust
get to know
one another
parry & joust
one good turn
deserves another

the games, people play
most never realizing
what's going on
beyond the time of day

those that finally
see in, beyond
the internal din

those precious few
with every observation
that they make

your soul seems
fit to break
as your tender center
is exposed

all those
parts of you
that you hoped
no one would ever know

that emotional flare
when they lock into
you

with a stare
with a stare

defense on the rise
such a knee-jerk response
you've entwined into your life

those precious few
who see through
your pitiful lies

how much you
would rather not
keep them around

all they seem to do
is tear you down
tear you down

truly
they help you out
in their curious ways

they'll only
bring out
the best in you

parry, joust
it may take time
parry, joust
patience is truly divine

your clouded
splintered self
will finally
be polished & whole

spite the feeling
of the destruction
that you keep
deep in your soul

so let them pry
let them be

allow yourself
allow yourself

to be pushed
into the most
that you can be

into the most
that you can be

~K

Tearing me apart (Now or Never)

(yea! another one! )

sick and tired of waiting
doing this since i can remember
don't know if there is a time to act
bit it seems like now or never

it's tearing me apart
left doesn't know right
and dexter is out
looking for a fight

it's tearing me apart
can't be brought back
once it's all in two

forcing forward
i've lost the path
forcing forward
bushwhacking with my wrath

it's tearing me apart
dexter is looking for a fight
once it's in two
nothing can make it through

shale's breaking
under my feet
looking back, can't retreat
forward still no path
but it's now or never

now or never
can't bring it back
together
now or never
or lose this moment
forever

it's tearing me apart
(now or never)
it's tearing me apart
(lose it forever)

it's tearing me apart
and i just don't know
where to start.


~K

Words not Spoken (poet's device)

('Ello all, 'tis been awhile i know, here's a new one for you. Inspired by a friend.
You know who you are. )

Found out too late
that you both wanted
to go beyond
the second date

or on the
other end

found out at the
joining ceremonies end
there was always
another plan

words not spoken
the most painful
of all things

words not spoken
subjects to create
idle dreams

he was never
that into you
she was always
waiting for you

either way
another broken heart
lies on the pathway

words not spoken
a poets device

words not spoken
what's the world
without some spice?


~K

note!

just to clear up some confusion,
i am NOT the bassist in the group
Naked Lunch or the affiliated group
Calypso and the Big whiskey. Jamming
occurs but that is it. Do NOT
approach me with information that you wish for
those bands thank you.
They are looking for a bassist still
please speak with them about it.
Thank you.


~K

crow

(humm.. seems to be a lot coming out all at once, odd, but nice. once again.. oddly poetic.. )

crow, in my hole again
caw so familiar
it makes amends

black wings unfurl
soul stuck
between world

(it makes amends, to it's own soul)

such a task
removing flesh
saving bone

(it makes amends, try to be whole)

aid all those
whose gratitude
will never show

(it makes amends, filling it's holes)

strange company
it keeps
to save from being alone


~K


(this piece may be incorporated into a painting......)

Enjoy Your Soul

(my writing has seemed to take an interesting turn.. and truly, i feel it's becoming more like poetry... humm..)

The assumptions
you make of me
pass though

barely clinging
your impressions
of what i could be

some sweet thing
innocent being
that shall set you free

i shall destroy you
don't forget
i'll slice your heart to shards

lost
all the little bits
of you

tear it
consumed
the piece, whole

tear it
consumed
i enjoy your soul

thought
me, so innocent
me, so gentle
little did you know
the pile of bone
only grows


~K

That moment

(in the words of Sir McCartney "You'd think the world have had enough of silly love songs, i look around me and i see it isn't so"...)

In that moment
I'll never see you the same
in that moment
your beauty changed
in that moment

the domineering side was done
and the gentleness was won
such a sight to see
that nubile fluidity

in that moment
the curve
in that moment
the eyes
in that moment
it possessed my mind

from that moment
i am yours
would you have me

from that moment
i would lovingly
set you free.


~K

Call of our Times

(Yea! new post!
some of you have been privy to this one already.)

Putting up with Assholes
Putting up with Jerks
it's a high price for freedom
To get the life you deserve

You still get hurt
it happens all the time
and being misunderstood
it seems
is the call of our times

Communication
knowledge
of these things
guidance, hard to find


(being misunderstood
the call of our times)

another search
just to pass the time
it's a high price for freedom
to get the life you deserve

what else shall you give
pounds gone
skeletal remains
still they're demanding
searching again

It happens all the time
communication
knowledge
guidence, so hard to find

being misunderstood
the call of our times


~K

Shattered Reflection

( due to interesting and unforeseen events this song is now taking http://artificalintercourse.blogspot.com/2009/06/second-skin.html <-- this song's slot on the album "I will partake" )

*smash*
blood
down my arms
shattered reflection
lost all recognition

where am i
fractions
remain
thought i was whole
now all the patches show

striving
pushing

why am i destroying me
why am i destroying me
why am i destroying me
why am i preventing
myself
from
being, me

*heavy breathing*

destroying
angels
destroying
myself
the only way
i can be free

so sick of this
holding myself back
standing in my own way
keeping off track

*smash*
*breathing*

this image
made of glass
useless to me now
as it's no longer
my reflection

tearing strips off
bearly a stitch clings
finally i am free
i am me
i am
what remains.


~K