To a Friend

I can be honest with You
Every thought
Always told
Always true
so Wonderful to have you
But, What Pains do I
put You Through

You Care so Much
and So do I
but we Both Know
that's All that can Ever Fly
Such a Treasure You are To Me
to Allow me a Space to be
perfectly Free

so Sorry I am
for these Tortures
I Know They are There
They are so Easy to See
no matter how much you Try
to Hide Them
so Desperately

Thank You So Much
for What you have Given
to Me
My Debt to You
lives on Indefinitely

I'm Sorry for these Troubles
sorry for the Pains
if i Knew a way to Stop
You would Never Have them Again
but it seems I'm Hooked
To A Wonderful Friend
and now I Wonder
If I'll ever be the same again

I thank you again
With the Depths of my Soul
In Your Allowing me
A Space to be Whole

I am So Weary
That the Price You Pay is too Dear
That my Presence
only causes you Pain
oh how I Fear

Thank you Again
for All You have Done
When That time has Come
When it's all Too Much
When the Line Must be Drawn
because even though you Hide it
I know it's Coming Along

I'm So Sorry
Thank you
I'm So Sorry
Thank You


~K

Giving too Much

I can only Imagine
how this looks to You
I've shown You Too Much
and Soon
You'll come Unglued
the Depths I Carry
tread them lightly indeed
as the Dreams in here
have Barely Taken Seed

This is How I am
Just so you Know
so if it's Too much
Guess that's the end
of the Show
Hope you had Fun
A memory or Two
Maybe one day
You'll Figure out
Where You need to Improve

I realize of course
that I read too Much in
to the Situation
like a Child
Indeed, Eager and Hopeful
having not Taken
Their First Fall
the Terror that Ensues
at the Shock of it All
Giving Too Much
Seems Over Eager of Course
and Soon one Finds
that for Some
it can Be
much too Overwhelming
when it comes, So Easily

We'll See how It Works out
We'll See if It can Change
but Keep in Mind
Nothing Can Ever
Remain The Same
People are, Meant To Change


~K

I forgot

I forgot
It's just Sex
I forgot
It's only Lust
I forgot
There is a reason why
I never Trust

This fleeting heart of mine
moves so fast
I can't see any sign
of where it goes
till it's too late
the Damage is done
another Mistake

I should Sever
the strings
to this beating
Thing
ensure it's Demise
before it Blinds my eyes
Again

I forgot
You've been Everywhere
I forgot
I'm the one who chooses with Care
I Forgot
that I can just be added to the Pile
I forgot
how quickly it All
get's Destroyed

such difficult things
the Emotions are
life would be so much Easier
if I could just
Watch from Afar
stay away and Pretend
that I had Never thought of You
as more then a Friend

I should Freeze
this Thing
pumping my Vitality
Stop it's flow
so Finally
No Emotions would show

I forgot
what this Heart can do
I forgot
for this to Work
that You Need One Too
I forgot
how much it can mean
I forgot
How Much Pain I can Take


~k