(this is actually a duet "-" denotes second voice "+" denotes both)
waiting for it to go
-filled with a passion
watching as it grows
- some may say a rage
feeling nothing and all else
- breaking myself, out of this cage
never knowing how it felt
- it's filling me
washing over me
- i will tear it down
this world is gone
- make me whole
watch for the fall
+see me tear it down
+dropping my mind
+can't it just be released
+forgotten soul
+can't i just let go
+who ever said we need be whole
+ let my mind implode
+let this flow through me
lose all the bits
-let go of control
fractured and scarred
-passions fill me
be who you are
-guard will stay in full
no masks, no shame
-mind will be released
never pretending to be
- i will be whole
no other name
-burdens let go
i'll be just fine
+in time
+dropping my mind
+can't it just be released
+forgotten soul
+can't i just let go
+who ever said we need be whole
+ let my mind implode
+let this flow through me
keep this existance
-don't let it go
never forcing to be
-lost control
let flow as it should
- go overboard
be lost
- never held in again
exist as no other
-make amends
be not what you behold
-standing my ground
encompass not their fate
+i will be only me
+dropping my mind
+can't it just be released
+forgotten soul
+can't i just let go
+who ever said we need be whole
+ let my mind implode
+let this flow through me
let me be
as i should
-don't force upon me
what i could
-wonder not
-for a lost chance
be only
that future path
-forget their ignorance
take what you need
be what you are
-be free
+with your integrity
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Pieces Fall
lost connections
wires cut
frayed & splayed
witnessing the falling apart
after leaving the thing
to it's own device
they say it's now of never
to put these pieces
back together
gazing across the sky
wondering, will anyone even try
beginning to rust
beginning to fade
the parts are broken
all have lost their shade
forgotten now
what device was once made
they say it's now or never
to put these pieces
back together
searching through the times
no one seems, to have the mind
crumbling to bits
away in a breeze
opportunity lost
misplaced, the time to seize
looking with woe
at things, too few tried to know
things must pass
way's must change
all these lives, too soon
re-arranged
forging the new
connections it seems
are routed in ways
beyond our dreams
let the pieces fall
let the pieces fall
till we've lost it all
let the pieces fall
slipping down
into the void
senses lost
consciousness devoid
changes come
amid this
all encompassing delirium
illuminated within me
blinded, vanished
the traces that decree
how thoughts arise
how things may be
fluidity fills
amid this relm
of sensory overkill
thoughts collide
in the manner of a tide
as finally
consciousness awakened to
things, it is unable, yet
to understand
all aspects of self
in a state of
overflow
evolving to a place where
all reality it,
implodes
to begin again
to develop anew
let the pieces fall
as the change creates
everything
let the pieces fall
just out of view
just out of view
let the pieces fall
just outside of you.
wires cut
frayed & splayed
witnessing the falling apart
after leaving the thing
to it's own device
they say it's now of never
to put these pieces
back together
gazing across the sky
wondering, will anyone even try
beginning to rust
beginning to fade
the parts are broken
all have lost their shade
forgotten now
what device was once made
they say it's now or never
to put these pieces
back together
searching through the times
no one seems, to have the mind
crumbling to bits
away in a breeze
opportunity lost
misplaced, the time to seize
looking with woe
at things, too few tried to know
things must pass
way's must change
all these lives, too soon
re-arranged
forging the new
connections it seems
are routed in ways
beyond our dreams
let the pieces fall
let the pieces fall
till we've lost it all
let the pieces fall
slipping down
into the void
senses lost
consciousness devoid
changes come
amid this
all encompassing delirium
illuminated within me
blinded, vanished
the traces that decree
how thoughts arise
how things may be
fluidity fills
amid this relm
of sensory overkill
thoughts collide
in the manner of a tide
as finally
consciousness awakened to
things, it is unable, yet
to understand
all aspects of self
in a state of
overflow
evolving to a place where
all reality it,
implodes
to begin again
to develop anew
let the pieces fall
as the change creates
everything
let the pieces fall
just out of view
just out of view
let the pieces fall
just outside of you.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
these words
(sorry it is so long between posts, going through some shit and socializing too much)
These words
I'm supposed to be able to describe
these words
i drive myself insane trying to hide
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
to have me lost this way
My heart is supposed to be dead
my heart is supposed to follow my head
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
for these games i feel i play
Why can't i say it
why can't i be
True
To the only person
I should be.
FUCKING ME!
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
and these games i have to play
Why am i scared
why can't i be
this person
that i worked so hard
to finally
be brave enough
to be
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
to have me lost this way
Just let me be
The person
so many years
so many things
have forced
me to be
every ounce of me
simply striving to be
FUCKING ME
now i'm so scared
i try to hide
what i cannot describe
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
I drive myself insane trying to hide
FUCK YOU
to have me lost this way
FUCK YOU
for these games i feel i play
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
My heart is supposed to be dead
my heart is supposed to follow
MY HEAD
FUCK YOU
i'm supposed to follow my head
fuck you
Fuck.
i think i love you.
These words
I'm supposed to be able to describe
these words
i drive myself insane trying to hide
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
to have me lost this way
My heart is supposed to be dead
my heart is supposed to follow my head
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
for these games i feel i play
Why can't i say it
why can't i be
True
To the only person
I should be.
FUCKING ME!
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
and these games i have to play
Why am i scared
why can't i be
this person
that i worked so hard
to finally
be brave enough
to be
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
to have me lost this way
Just let me be
The person
so many years
so many things
have forced
me to be
every ounce of me
simply striving to be
FUCKING ME
now i'm so scared
i try to hide
what i cannot describe
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
I drive myself insane trying to hide
FUCK YOU
to have me lost this way
FUCK YOU
for these games i feel i play
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
My heart is supposed to be dead
my heart is supposed to follow
MY HEAD
FUCK YOU
i'm supposed to follow my head
fuck you
Fuck.
i think i love you.
Monday, June 8, 2009
Cup of Tea
One so youthful
to be so bold
dangerous they say
yet a beauty to behold
pure temptation
gazes back at me
and truly he is
my delightful cup of tea
a simple swap
who's to know
what changes have taken place
in the world below
pure temptation
gazes back at me
and truly he is
my delightful cup of tea
timeless movement
as you say the words
"now follow me"
i must step back
try to refrain
but to gaze in the eyes of my temptation
it's enough to drive me insane
pure temptation
gazes back at me
and truly he is
my delightful cup of tea
shall i take a sip
dive right in?
who's to know
but me and that devious grin
such a temptation
it's eating at me
such a temptation
my delightful cup of tea
i wonder why
do i not give in
on my side
the only problems i find
are the inner creations
of my own mind
do i let down the wall
let the tea flood in
only one way to find out
let the tasting begin
to be so bold
dangerous they say
yet a beauty to behold
pure temptation
gazes back at me
and truly he is
my delightful cup of tea
a simple swap
who's to know
what changes have taken place
in the world below
pure temptation
gazes back at me
and truly he is
my delightful cup of tea
timeless movement
as you say the words
"now follow me"
i must step back
try to refrain
but to gaze in the eyes of my temptation
it's enough to drive me insane
pure temptation
gazes back at me
and truly he is
my delightful cup of tea
shall i take a sip
dive right in?
who's to know
but me and that devious grin
such a temptation
it's eating at me
such a temptation
my delightful cup of tea
i wonder why
do i not give in
on my side
the only problems i find
are the inner creations
of my own mind
do i let down the wall
let the tea flood in
only one way to find out
let the tasting begin
My Friend
you make me feel
like i'm some sort of bitch
make me re-think my actions
like i had a fit
i'm not two faced
i'm not a whore
you are sending the wrong signals
and then begging for more
what am i supposed to do
when i don't know
what you choose to do
how do i respond
to the snaps
to the verbal whip
when i have no idea
on your reason for it
i'm not two faced
i'm not a whore
you are sending the wrong signals
and then begging for more
parry, joust
another confusing conversation
i'm so lost at what to do
what is our relation?
friends, enemies
tentative truce
any move i make
only seems to cause
the situation
to become more obtuse
the ball is in your court
my friend
know that all i ever wanted
was to make sure
you were doing ok
in the end
like i'm some sort of bitch
make me re-think my actions
like i had a fit
i'm not two faced
i'm not a whore
you are sending the wrong signals
and then begging for more
what am i supposed to do
when i don't know
what you choose to do
how do i respond
to the snaps
to the verbal whip
when i have no idea
on your reason for it
i'm not two faced
i'm not a whore
you are sending the wrong signals
and then begging for more
parry, joust
another confusing conversation
i'm so lost at what to do
what is our relation?
friends, enemies
tentative truce
any move i make
only seems to cause
the situation
to become more obtuse
the ball is in your court
my friend
know that all i ever wanted
was to make sure
you were doing ok
in the end
Those Who Chose the Sea
(another inspired by VKS dreams)
Everyone has a place to be
the land, the sky, the sea
all our own versions
of how to be free
least of all
do we understand
those who chose the sea
what daemons
what majesty
in those
who chose the sea
appearance of wings
appearance of spots
hidden among
other things
those who sing
song we strive to understand
those who are unable to hide
any emotions
in their multicolored flesh
what daemons
what majesty
we find
in those
who chose the sea
unearthly movements of course
(in) seemingly a relm
of anti gravity
going deeper
morphing shapes
the skeletons emerge
signs of pressure
almost insect disguise
never would imagine
what the shadows hide
such a world
things nearly never known
the most verity
in any place to be
is the realm under the sea
Everyone has a place to be
the land, the sky, the sea
all our own versions
of how to be free
least of all
do we understand
those who chose the sea
what daemons
what majesty
in those
who chose the sea
appearance of wings
appearance of spots
hidden among
other things
those who sing
song we strive to understand
those who are unable to hide
any emotions
in their multicolored flesh
what daemons
what majesty
we find
in those
who chose the sea
unearthly movements of course
(in) seemingly a relm
of anti gravity
going deeper
morphing shapes
the skeletons emerge
signs of pressure
almost insect disguise
never would imagine
what the shadows hide
such a world
things nearly never known
the most verity
in any place to be
is the realm under the sea
my soul
It's amazing how
i had never realized
how much i had lost
of what was inside
not till i saw you again
till the stinging
over powered my eyes
that i was aware
of how much
of me died
i breathe in your scent
and feel whole
gaze upon you
i found my soul
to feel you
under my fingers
finally no longer
a memory
have you encompass
all of my senses
such a beautiful
bliss for me
oh how i missed you
i didn't even realize
until the tears
began to sting my eyes
i had forgotten
that part of my soul
but now i feel again
how it is to be whole
i had never realized
how much i had lost
of what was inside
not till i saw you again
till the stinging
over powered my eyes
that i was aware
of how much
of me died
i breathe in your scent
and feel whole
gaze upon you
i found my soul
to feel you
under my fingers
finally no longer
a memory
have you encompass
all of my senses
such a beautiful
bliss for me
oh how i missed you
i didn't even realize
until the tears
began to sting my eyes
i had forgotten
that part of my soul
but now i feel again
how it is to be whole
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Infants Eyes
( last song from the Album "I Will Partake")
seeing the world
like infants eyes
the glitter and glow
filling the skys
after such little effort
it all comes back
to the beauty
almost forgotten
stopping
to think
to wonder again
how come i never did this before
it was so simple
it's so much easier
to just be me
why was i blinded
it was so convincing
but with the veil gone
it's all so clear
what was stopping me
others
no
myself
mostly
glad that's out of the way
~K
seeing the world
like infants eyes
the glitter and glow
filling the skys
after such little effort
it all comes back
to the beauty
almost forgotten
stopping
to think
to wonder again
how come i never did this before
it was so simple
it's so much easier
to just be me
why was i blinded
it was so convincing
but with the veil gone
it's all so clear
what was stopping me
others
no
myself
mostly
glad that's out of the way
~K
Monday, June 1, 2009
Free of the Burden
( excerpt from the album "I Will Partake")
eye over shoulder
20/20 hindsight kicks in
make me wonder
how i managed before
fighting tooth and nail
for every little thing
when all i had to do
was simply give in
to be, only me
so glad to be
free of the burden
of being the
false side of me
looking into the haze
of long gone days
laughing at all
of the curious antics
simple cover
always hiding
what was the truth
so glad to be
free of the burden
of being the
false side of me
keeping up the charade
always avoiding the exposure
of the games being played
hiding the self, deep down inside
forever worrying
for it's discovery
never knowing
how much easier life could be
so glad to be
free of the burden
of being the
false side of me
looking back
i realize, and regain my strength
to keep my feet on this path
as i know the others that exist
their trails i have marked
i have known them too well
and look forward
to making a path anew
~K
eye over shoulder
20/20 hindsight kicks in
make me wonder
how i managed before
fighting tooth and nail
for every little thing
when all i had to do
was simply give in
to be, only me
so glad to be
free of the burden
of being the
false side of me
looking into the haze
of long gone days
laughing at all
of the curious antics
simple cover
always hiding
what was the truth
so glad to be
free of the burden
of being the
false side of me
keeping up the charade
always avoiding the exposure
of the games being played
hiding the self, deep down inside
forever worrying
for it's discovery
never knowing
how much easier life could be
so glad to be
free of the burden
of being the
false side of me
looking back
i realize, and regain my strength
to keep my feet on this path
as i know the others that exist
their trails i have marked
i have known them too well
and look forward
to making a path anew
~K
Person to Be
( excerpt from album "I Will Partake")
Everything clear
such synchronicity
a world of wonder
all for me
just from being myself
the marvels i find
no longer listening to
the marketing machine
willing just to be
me
decisions made
ways changed
a world
lovingly rearranged
beign myself now
has never been
such a perfect
person to be
world flowing
like rivers unobstructed
endless chasms of wonder
waiting and arriving for me
what a wonderful experience to be
me
thoughts on a whim
do as i please
desires within
all fulfilled with ease
never a clash
never a guilt laden case
all in truth
as i am myself
in all it's grace
never thought it could be
the most perfect way for me
never thought it would be
the easiest way to be
but now i see
all i need to be
is me
~K
Everything clear
such synchronicity
a world of wonder
all for me
just from being myself
the marvels i find
no longer listening to
the marketing machine
willing just to be
me
decisions made
ways changed
a world
lovingly rearranged
beign myself now
has never been
such a perfect
person to be
world flowing
like rivers unobstructed
endless chasms of wonder
waiting and arriving for me
what a wonderful experience to be
me
thoughts on a whim
do as i please
desires within
all fulfilled with ease
never a clash
never a guilt laden case
all in truth
as i am myself
in all it's grace
never thought it could be
the most perfect way for me
never thought it would be
the easiest way to be
but now i see
all i need to be
is me
~K
I Remain
( excerpt from album "I Will Partake")
After my interaction
i will grow
i will develop
and i will remain
you may fall
faltering
waning
you lack my will
you lack my strength
i will turn my dream
into reality
no one can take
this part of me
this essence of me
the will of one
i will be
everything you've hated
everything you've dreamed of
you'll tear me down
never help along the way
though i will remain
the pattern is
always the same
how to stand this ordeal
i will
you will wonder
how i got here
taking away my bridges
t'll shove it back
into your face
i've just kept pushing
i found myself
hidden on
the top shelf
in a locked mask box
didn't realize
i was gone
now i'm out
freed of myself
no longer an abstract
of myself
and now you see
with myself full of me
how no matter what you do
i remain
~K
After my interaction
i will grow
i will develop
and i will remain
you may fall
faltering
waning
you lack my will
you lack my strength
i will turn my dream
into reality
no one can take
this part of me
this essence of me
the will of one
i will be
everything you've hated
everything you've dreamed of
you'll tear me down
never help along the way
though i will remain
the pattern is
always the same
how to stand this ordeal
i will
you will wonder
how i got here
taking away my bridges
t'll shove it back
into your face
i've just kept pushing
i found myself
hidden on
the top shelf
in a locked mask box
didn't realize
i was gone
now i'm out
freed of myself
no longer an abstract
of myself
and now you see
with myself full of me
how no matter what you do
i remain
~K
Second Skin
(due to rather strange events and confusion, this song has been removed from "I will Partake", so that a few people can collaborate on it with me, it is being replaced with another track though no worries. also, it got re-vamped as all mighty muffins.)
An Isolation i feel
it's surrounded me
created within
no one will get through
my second skin
clinging to me
my skin can't breathe
bring it closer to me
sounds fill my mind
scent so close
nothing else could
*gasp*
tearing holes, for eyes
my collapse, inside
what's happening to me
everything i crafted,
falling apart
my body it writhes
mind is bent and stained
tearing down
breaking the walls
that protect me
protect me
what's happening to me
everything has changed
body's poised and senseless
but i will pray for more
so close
i know it cannot be true
so close
forgetting
it's not me
do i do this
to keep you
from me?
carve me out of here
i'm locked within
my second skin
must destroy what i love
torn apart
from the inside out
my fear faded
the smoke cleared
free to create
a piece of me
a bit of me
what happened to me?
how long i have waited
to be released from here
all hope is gone
nothing left of my fears
disintegrate what was
holding me in
tearing me out
of this second skin
second skin
held within
~K
An Isolation i feel
it's surrounded me
created within
no one will get through
my second skin
clinging to me
my skin can't breathe
bring it closer to me
sounds fill my mind
scent so close
nothing else could
*gasp*
tearing holes, for eyes
my collapse, inside
what's happening to me
everything i crafted,
falling apart
my body it writhes
mind is bent and stained
tearing down
breaking the walls
that protect me
protect me
what's happening to me
everything has changed
body's poised and senseless
but i will pray for more
so close
i know it cannot be true
so close
forgetting
it's not me
do i do this
to keep you
from me?
carve me out of here
i'm locked within
my second skin
must destroy what i love
torn apart
from the inside out
my fear faded
the smoke cleared
free to create
a piece of me
a bit of me
what happened to me?
how long i have waited
to be released from here
all hope is gone
nothing left of my fears
disintegrate what was
holding me in
tearing me out
of this second skin
second skin
held within
~K
The New Stain
(excerpt from album "I Will Partake" yes it's a very long album..)
These thoughts toiling
a current, so hard to avoid
saturating my mind
it's stained anew
drenched sight and thought
seems to be
better this way
this new sight for me
much better for be
practicing to impersonate
the rest
but i prefer my new
stained vest
it fits better then
any other
and suits better
then those other colors
venturing out
to the world
noticing the change
everything seems, so easy
now that i only work
to be me
watching others struggle
i wonder
whose vest do they wear
is that their stain?
drenched my mind my vision
seems to be
better this way
this new sight for me
much better to be
my vest works
in any situation
never ill fitted
always a good conversation
about how i look a new
seems people are noticing
and found wanting
this new stain
~K
These thoughts toiling
a current, so hard to avoid
saturating my mind
it's stained anew
drenched sight and thought
seems to be
better this way
this new sight for me
much better for be
practicing to impersonate
the rest
but i prefer my new
stained vest
it fits better then
any other
and suits better
then those other colors
venturing out
to the world
noticing the change
everything seems, so easy
now that i only work
to be me
watching others struggle
i wonder
whose vest do they wear
is that their stain?
drenched my mind my vision
seems to be
better this way
this new sight for me
much better to be
my vest works
in any situation
never ill fitted
always a good conversation
about how i look a new
seems people are noticing
and found wanting
this new stain
~K
Masks You Keep
( excerpt from the album "I Will Partake")
I open the door and step inside
i'm inside my mind
filled with aspects of myself
reflections of my interactions
a collective
locked on the shelf
in my mind
hiding in the mind's eye
running from the dead
never allowing myself to be seen
this darkness spreads
these compartments leak
and soon we will be the same
in my mind's eye
uniform
locked on the shelf
in my head
hiding in the mind's eye
running from the dead
never allowing myself to be seen
how do i find myself
among these masks i keep
wearing them for so long
lost on the shelf
identity
locked on the shelf
in my head
hiding in the mind's eye
running from the dead
never allowing myself to be seen
keeping it hidden away
watching from behind my eyes
mind is a collective
of my pretending ways
i am losing myself
being pulled down
from my self
tearing the mask
from my eyes
my reflections will me
released
This game will cease
I'll find myself again
~K
I open the door and step inside
i'm inside my mind
filled with aspects of myself
reflections of my interactions
a collective
locked on the shelf
in my mind
hiding in the mind's eye
running from the dead
never allowing myself to be seen
this darkness spreads
these compartments leak
and soon we will be the same
in my mind's eye
uniform
locked on the shelf
in my head
hiding in the mind's eye
running from the dead
never allowing myself to be seen
how do i find myself
among these masks i keep
wearing them for so long
lost on the shelf
identity
locked on the shelf
in my head
hiding in the mind's eye
running from the dead
never allowing myself to be seen
keeping it hidden away
watching from behind my eyes
mind is a collective
of my pretending ways
i am losing myself
being pulled down
from my self
tearing the mask
from my eyes
my reflections will me
released
This game will cease
I'll find myself again
~K
Piece of Me
( from the album "I Will Partake")
This piece of me
i will fight
to win
this piece of me
my integrity
so long
this fight has been
the confusion
i have endured
tedious
Finally
i will be whole
this will be
given to me
given to me
I will have
what i need
my fight will not be
in vain
though this world
is strong
this game
i know
and with my integrity
i will succeed
one thing you won't find
is dollar bills
behind my eyes
that's not why i'm here
that's not why i am
and if that's what you think
you've missed everything
a shame you are
for i'll go
without a care
just to be free
just to be me
~K
This piece of me
i will fight
to win
this piece of me
my integrity
so long
this fight has been
the confusion
i have endured
tedious
Finally
i will be whole
this will be
given to me
given to me
I will have
what i need
my fight will not be
in vain
though this world
is strong
this game
i know
and with my integrity
i will succeed
one thing you won't find
is dollar bills
behind my eyes
that's not why i'm here
that's not why i am
and if that's what you think
you've missed everything
a shame you are
for i'll go
without a care
just to be free
just to be me
~K
World we live in
(of course another from the album "I Will Partake" it's a long album... and i'm putting the whole sucker on here. )
Working for those precious moments, few
a smile, a glance
that laughing grin
a world untrue
in this vicious world we live
it takes all of our strength not to give in
and still see wonderful things can be
cherishing a savored time
so few and harder to find
caring friends
methods manage to destroy
the essence of kinship
in this vicious world we live
it takes all of our strength not to give in
and still see wonderful things can be
extinct are times of many joys
of a world without a devious ploy
somehow we try to succeed
without a thought to others concerns or needs
displaced are friendships
in this vicious world we live
it takes all of our strength not to give in
and still see wonderful things can be
looking to find
a sense of peaceful mind
but in this world it seems
to only destroy out dreams
working for eternity
in this vicious world we live
it takes all of our strength not to give in
and still see wonderful things can be
laughter a forgotten noise
even from children with toys
as the sparkles from eyes fade away
one wonders was it worth going astray
to be the only one to see
how vicious the world is turning to be
in this vicious world we live
it takes all of our strength not to give in
and still see wonderful things can be
why do we throw it away?
why do we not want these days?
working for others demise
pushing to capsize
our world
that won't be me
not me
any longer
you'll see
~K
Working for those precious moments, few
a smile, a glance
that laughing grin
a world untrue
in this vicious world we live
it takes all of our strength not to give in
and still see wonderful things can be
cherishing a savored time
so few and harder to find
caring friends
methods manage to destroy
the essence of kinship
in this vicious world we live
it takes all of our strength not to give in
and still see wonderful things can be
extinct are times of many joys
of a world without a devious ploy
somehow we try to succeed
without a thought to others concerns or needs
displaced are friendships
in this vicious world we live
it takes all of our strength not to give in
and still see wonderful things can be
looking to find
a sense of peaceful mind
but in this world it seems
to only destroy out dreams
working for eternity
in this vicious world we live
it takes all of our strength not to give in
and still see wonderful things can be
laughter a forgotten noise
even from children with toys
as the sparkles from eyes fade away
one wonders was it worth going astray
to be the only one to see
how vicious the world is turning to be
in this vicious world we live
it takes all of our strength not to give in
and still see wonderful things can be
why do we throw it away?
why do we not want these days?
working for others demise
pushing to capsize
our world
that won't be me
not me
any longer
you'll see
~K
Fragments
( another from the album "I Will Partake")
Pushing and pulling
frustration is coming in
actions staggering
barely knowing where to begin
the will to succeed
driving me, to keep trying
always
putting back
what's falling apart
putting back
what came from the start
put the fragments back together
fumbling
but it's now or never
edges blurring, more
struggling
the sense of urgency
is crushing me
putting back
what's falling apart
putting back
what came from the start
insipid
staples and seams
hold it in place
falling apart
almost no trace
of how they all connect
seems there's no way
to make it all stay
putting back
what's fallen apart
putting back
what came from the start
enervating
fighting to pull it back together
fumbling
pressure is building
i know it's now or never
Finally
it's the way it's meant to be
all has been done
for the pieces to fit
they'll fall no more
as i know
that can't be me
~K
Pushing and pulling
frustration is coming in
actions staggering
barely knowing where to begin
the will to succeed
driving me, to keep trying
always
putting back
what's falling apart
putting back
what came from the start
put the fragments back together
fumbling
but it's now or never
edges blurring, more
struggling
the sense of urgency
is crushing me
putting back
what's falling apart
putting back
what came from the start
insipid
staples and seams
hold it in place
falling apart
almost no trace
of how they all connect
seems there's no way
to make it all stay
putting back
what's fallen apart
putting back
what came from the start
enervating
fighting to pull it back together
fumbling
pressure is building
i know it's now or never
Finally
it's the way it's meant to be
all has been done
for the pieces to fit
they'll fall no more
as i know
that can't be me
~K
Fully Sedated & Medicated
(another from the album "I Will Partake")
fully sedated and medicated
ready to face the day
fully sedated and medicated
ready to do as you say
the way i'm told to be
no thoughts left for me
follow the orders
left no quarter
never asking for more
not even realizing
i'm commanded to be the whore
fully sedated and medicated
the doped up grin
fully sedated and medicated
i'll recite those words
that have been hammered in
Be the drone, indeed
follow the steps, never lead
comatose thoughts
what's a dream?
i find no reference to this
in the programmed scheme
fully sedated and medicated
eyes glazed make in place
fully sedated and medicated
happily joining in the rat race
this is my existence now
nothing else to be
what other world is there
then the one told to me
the dial tone continues
as i face another day
fully sedated and medicated
ready to face the day
fully sedated and medicated
ready to do as you say
the way i'm told to be
no thoughts left for me
follow the orders
left no quarter
never asking for more
not even realizing
i'm commanded to be the whore
fully sedated and medicated
the doped up grin
fully sedated and medicated
i'll recite those words
that have been hammered in
Be the drone, indeed
follow the steps, never lead
comatose thoughts
what's a dream?
i find no reference to this
in the programmed scheme
fully sedated and medicated
eyes glazed make in place
fully sedated and medicated
happily joining in the rat race
this is my existence now
nothing else to be
what other world is there
then the one told to me
the dial tone continues
as i face another day
Swallow This Pride
( another excerpt from "I Will Partake")
I'll keep these thoughts hidden
swallow this pride
push away that path
that my heart craves inside
my dreams, my dreams
these thoughts i hide
no one will know
hidden for long enough
even i'll forget what i don't show
nothing will change
these thoughts that stir
will stay inside of me
no one will know
like the white bone lined closet
door locked, key lost
even i'll forget
what i don't show
dreams can be lost
never to be followed
lives can lived
on a different path i'm sure
all can forget
what hope once were
the world will be
fine
without that
little bit of me
I'll keep these thoughts hidden
swallow this pride
push away that path
that my heart craves inside
my dreams, my dreams
these thoughts i hide
no one will know
hidden for long enough
even i'll forget what i don't show
nothing will change
these thoughts that stir
will stay inside of me
no one will know
like the white bone lined closet
door locked, key lost
even i'll forget
what i don't show
dreams can be lost
never to be followed
lives can lived
on a different path i'm sure
all can forget
what hope once were
the world will be
fine
without that
little bit of me
Hidden Within
( another excerpt from "I Will Partake")
Something kinda playful
hidden within
what's hiding inside
was supposed to have been
why has it been hiding
who's told it to go
whose said it can't stay here
(no one)
then why
(someone)
well who
(i don't know)
well then lets have it out
bring it out to play
we'll climb inside
and show it the light of day
surrender to yourself
be your whole
don't hide what's inside
embrace your, strange
you'll find a place to fit
it will be better
then forcing it down
you will be free
the world needs that person
you're hiding inside of you
there is a perfect for them
if you only let them out
to be as you yearn to be
stop pushing down those dreams
set them free
watch them soar
and discover
why the world needs you now
so much more
then you ever could've been
without following your beautiful dreams
Something kinda playful
hidden within
what's hiding inside
was supposed to have been
why has it been hiding
who's told it to go
whose said it can't stay here
(no one)
then why
(someone)
well who
(i don't know)
well then lets have it out
bring it out to play
we'll climb inside
and show it the light of day
surrender to yourself
be your whole
don't hide what's inside
embrace your, strange
you'll find a place to fit
it will be better
then forcing it down
you will be free
the world needs that person
you're hiding inside of you
there is a perfect for them
if you only let them out
to be as you yearn to be
stop pushing down those dreams
set them free
watch them soar
and discover
why the world needs you now
so much more
then you ever could've been
without following your beautiful dreams
Your Reflection
( Excerpt from album "I Will Partake")
I see your reflection
you're pacing quietly
sorting through the damage
discovering all of your broken dreams
there is nothing tangible
in our interaction
but you are changed
thoughts you brushed aside
are trying to see light again
the things you did
to "fit in"
"look cool"
now you realize
you're still being played a fool
Breaking habits can be hard
but the journey of 100 miles
begins with the first step
the only goal being
to look back with no regrets
you know how to do this
remember from long ago
it's not that hard to change
once you get past fear
chase out the mind killer
reclaim your being
and soon
you'll realize
how easy this really is
worry not
soon you will see
you'll retrace steps you set
and finally be
where you're meant to be
I see your reflection
you're pacing quietly
sorting through the damage
discovering all of your broken dreams
there is nothing tangible
in our interaction
but you are changed
thoughts you brushed aside
are trying to see light again
the things you did
to "fit in"
"look cool"
now you realize
you're still being played a fool
Breaking habits can be hard
but the journey of 100 miles
begins with the first step
the only goal being
to look back with no regrets
you know how to do this
remember from long ago
it's not that hard to change
once you get past fear
chase out the mind killer
reclaim your being
and soon
you'll realize
how easy this really is
worry not
soon you will see
you'll retrace steps you set
and finally be
where you're meant to be
Path of Idiots
(excerpted from the album "I will Partake")
Fashion full
mind vacant
you wonder why they call you an idiot
heels so high your back is broken
waist so tight you can barely take a toke in
wonder why, your tits are all they see
choosing the path of idiots
wondering how it happened
you brought this on yourself
no one will be there to help
maybe if you stop playing
backstabbing mind games
people will be a little more humane
chug the beer
inject the dream
fall from the chair
wonder how you caused a scene
hiding from knowledge and a single original thought
you wonder why they don't ask your opinion anymore
Choosing the path of idiots
didn't you realize what you were doing?
you brought this on yourself
don't start to blame everyone else
maybe if you read a book
you might find that people react differently
and begin to see you as a person again
so you wonder why they treat you
like some fucking idiot
but when you care
more about who see's you where
it looks like there's nothing
but a little air up there
so take the hint
get something in that head
otherwise your useless
as a used up durex sheaths
following the path of idiots
so full of shit
following the paths of idiots
wonder why they treat you like it
only you can fix it
idiot
fix it
idiot
Fashion full
mind vacant
you wonder why they call you an idiot
heels so high your back is broken
waist so tight you can barely take a toke in
wonder why, your tits are all they see
choosing the path of idiots
wondering how it happened
you brought this on yourself
no one will be there to help
maybe if you stop playing
backstabbing mind games
people will be a little more humane
chug the beer
inject the dream
fall from the chair
wonder how you caused a scene
hiding from knowledge and a single original thought
you wonder why they don't ask your opinion anymore
Choosing the path of idiots
didn't you realize what you were doing?
you brought this on yourself
don't start to blame everyone else
maybe if you read a book
you might find that people react differently
and begin to see you as a person again
so you wonder why they treat you
like some fucking idiot
but when you care
more about who see's you where
it looks like there's nothing
but a little air up there
so take the hint
get something in that head
otherwise your useless
as a used up durex sheaths
following the path of idiots
so full of shit
following the paths of idiots
wonder why they treat you like it
only you can fix it
idiot
fix it
idiot
TV
(excerpted from album "I Will Partake")
It's funny how when tv was first invented people said it was evil. Slowly the world changed and accepted it. Now the view seems to be turning again, and some once again claim of it's evils...
Glued in
Stitched up
waiting to find
who'll win that fucking cup
Desperate to know
How she'll choose
from her life of idiots or booze
Disconnected and deranged
pushing the edge of sane
don't care about the world, you know
just the television show
-Make sure you get the whole tv front of the shotgun please-
It's sucking your life away
you don't realize
it's taken the sparkle out of your eyes
your imagination gone
lust for life shot
you don't know how many friends you've lost
following celebrities lives
forgotten your own
can't remember the last time you left your home to roam
your world consists of fast food
and the next soap
now wonder you don't care if your kids lose hope
this is not your umbilical cord
you can cut free
abolish this existence
and realize
how you can gain enrichment to your life
for hundreds of years
we have been wonderfully existing without tv
reclaim your dignity
It's funny how when tv was first invented people said it was evil. Slowly the world changed and accepted it. Now the view seems to be turning again, and some once again claim of it's evils...
Glued in
Stitched up
waiting to find
who'll win that fucking cup
Desperate to know
How she'll choose
from her life of idiots or booze
Disconnected and deranged
pushing the edge of sane
don't care about the world, you know
just the television show
-Make sure you get the whole tv front of the shotgun please-
It's sucking your life away
you don't realize
it's taken the sparkle out of your eyes
your imagination gone
lust for life shot
you don't know how many friends you've lost
following celebrities lives
forgotten your own
can't remember the last time you left your home to roam
your world consists of fast food
and the next soap
now wonder you don't care if your kids lose hope
this is not your umbilical cord
you can cut free
abolish this existence
and realize
how you can gain enrichment to your life
for hundreds of years
we have been wonderfully existing without tv
reclaim your dignity
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