these words

(sorry it is so long between posts, going through some shit and socializing too much)

These words
I'm supposed to be able to describe
these words
i drive myself insane trying to hide

FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
to have me lost this way

My heart is supposed to be dead
my heart is supposed to follow my head

FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
for these games i feel i play

Why can't i say it
why can't i be
True
To the only person
I should be.
FUCKING ME!

FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
and these games i have to play

Why am i scared
why can't i be
this person
that i worked so hard
to finally
be brave enough
to be

FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
to have me lost this way

Just let me be
The person
so many years
so many things
have forced
me to be

every ounce of me
simply striving to be
FUCKING ME
now i'm so scared
i try to hide
what i cannot describe

FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way
FUCK YOU
I drive myself insane trying to hide
FUCK YOU
to have me lost this way
FUCK YOU
for these games i feel i play
FUCK YOU
to make me feel this way

My heart is supposed to be dead
my heart is supposed to follow
MY HEAD

FUCK YOU

i'm supposed to follow my head

fuck you

Fuck.


i think i love you.